Life seems so unfair but still I go on

OK this is driving me crazy. How can one parent be responsible for everything; raising the child, providing everything needed, be the friend and disciplinarian while one does nothing but play weekend daddy? I love my some like I am sure all mothers do but there are so many things I don't understand. I don't understand how he can be aware of everything I do for him but he still gives his daddy hero props. Mind you his father does not pay child support, gets him on weekends and will not hold a job if ever child support court is mentioned. He blames everyone but himself for the failures in his life but whenevery William comes home from his dad's house it was talk of everything fun done. I realize that I have him more so I probably have to do more discipline and I remember when my parents were divorced that dad always tried to make the most of his weekends, but how can he not realize that Will needs more than weekend bbqs and pool time. If I need help for something for Will I have to ask for it, and that drives me crazy having to ask for him to help raise his son. He even has our son believing that he is trying to find a job and then he makes excuses for his dad. Thankfully one of us have a work ethic or my son could be another kid on the welfare system. I am a hard working mom that has always worked to provide insurance for MY son. He wants for nothing but that is not the point, if that child support is not used it could be in a savings account drawing what little interst Obama is letting banks give for his future; college, car or a home.

When did dads quit being dads when did they just become the buddy that visits every other weekend. I guess complaining doesn't help, I am just going to have to take measures into my own hands. I do everything for my son's future I wish he thought about him too!

Giving it a go

Well I am jumping on the blogging band wagon. I wonder if this will help me relieve the stresses of my job and kids.? Well I will certainly try anything.

We did it this was our first take all the kids to the beach weekend, even with the pending oil lurking toward the gulf beaches, but there was nothing but beautiful white sand, some seaweed and a GREAT time had by all. We have also decided two days with four boys might have been plenty. Just thinking we should have loaded them up on the second evening when they were all passing out and drove home. Their little attitudes and tempers accompanied with the baby and the only child seeming to not like not having their way, but all in all it was great. I am actually looking forward to returning to work tomorrow just to get away from all the boys. I know that sounds horrible coming from a mother but I need some time to not here, "Can I play the WII?, But I don't wanna eat that!, and When is my mommy coming to get us?" I am ready to be able to sit in the middle of the living room and hear nothing but silence. Does that make me a horrible mother?

Oh well if it does! I try my best to do everything but it is really annoying when you have made everyone's plates, drinks and sometimes their seconds before I could even sit down and enjoy my first bite. But I guess thats my job as a mom. Just wish sometimes I had two extra hands to speed me up so I can relax and enjoy the day, night ..... moment!

Ok so much for my first blog I am sure this will happen many more times.!! Have a great day all who stumble across this